In this blog and blogs to come I will write the patterns I identified in my previous blog in how I approach tasks/assignments in relation to my studies. Within this I will be correcting/removing all the blocks/resistances so I could study effectively and expand myself in my reality.
Here continuing with the backchat dimension:
I don’t have enough time for this
I have to shut down my mind in order to study effectively
I don’t have time for this
So this is not actually true, because I do have time and currently I am wasting this time being and spending it in my mind. And I mean I have written about this point before but I never really have seen how actually one is wasting time up there being in thoughts/imaginations/projections/excuses etc. etc.
Sure it is a possibility to have a lack of physical time when one has to work many hours combined with other responsibilities where there is no choice and other possibilities to ensure survival in this capitalistic system. Here self-honesty is the key which I utilize to actually evaluate my days and all activities I perform within these days. Self-honesty is cool when you realize that the only one I can fool is myself and the foolishness has consequences that become more and more apparent when the years go by. So the process here is to take the time that is spent on foolishness and utilize it to something that is productive.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how through allowing the backchat “I don’t have time for this” within me I am holding myself a prisoner to my past protecting the accepted self-limitation
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell myself ” I don’t have time for this” while I have time for other things that in no way support me, as in acquiring some skill with which I could contribute to this reality or any other way but only keep me entertained in my mind blind from the reality of this existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within that statement I am showing that self-interest is more important for me than actually taking action that I know will benefit many people and also myself but it will take time and patience to achieve that
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize to what extent I am responsible for my life where I have the power through my words/thoughts/imaginations/backchat influence my living experience in the physical thus within this realization I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not create for myself a living experience that is free of all the mindfucks that I currently possess and thus better create something that is a contribution to this reality as a whole with understanding that what is best for the whole is best for me because I am a part of the whole
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I experience a lack of time because of my job in the system and other necessities ensuring my daily existence, it doesn’t mean that I cannot move myself and change my outer environment through self willed actions to ensure better availability of time for things that really matter
I commit myself to assist and support myself in moments when the backchat “I don’t have time for this” arises where I take deep breath in and breath out and simply move myself through with the task/assignment/reading I am/was busy with realizing that I do have time for this but I don’t have time for this backchat
I commit myself to make sure that in the moments of this backchat recognition I remember where exactly this will lead me if I continue to participate in it and give it attention therefore I stop it immediately and move through any resistance that presents itself also realizing that resistance is the accumulation of layers each time I gave up on myself in these moments and i also realize that the resistance will not become less thus now is the best time to stop the destructive pattern and do what my practical world requires of me