Day 179: I am not good enough” character – backchat dimension (Part1)

 

 

This blog is a continuation within the series of blogs I am writing about “I am not good enough” character which manifests itself within situations where I have to take action by making a decision to actively participate in my everyday reality. In this blog I am looking at the dimension of backchat/inner conversations that manifest when I allow the character to play out.

Introductory Blog

 

Fear Dimension

Fear of being judged
Fear of making mistakes
Fear of confrontation/people
Fear of losing myself and that which I know
Fear of not being able to handle the truth of me
Fear of losing free choice
Fear of the responsibility

Thought dimension

Seeing myself in a situation that goes out of hand and I cannot control it
Seeing a picture that is “empty/blank”
Seeing a picture of myself where I am being screamed at/called out

 

Backchat dimension

How will people react when I change from being silent/introverted guy to suddenly being active in my participation
I just cannot start participating with people from my surroundings because the topics they discuss are useless and of pure self-interest
If I start participating/interacting actively I will have to sustain that and will not have the free time I used to have
I am not good at applying knowledge practically, I spent too much time just reading and listening to others
I just have to start doing it and it will work out
I do not have the critical thinking skills like others do, all I did was follow others thought out my life
*Here I will add more backchat if/when I find more during the process of writing  

 

Self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to believe that who I am as the silent/introvert guy which I was for my whole life is who I really am and that there is no way that I can change that

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about others and how they will perceive me when I jump in suddenly into active participation becoming a different being as what I was known to them

I commit myself to remove “others” from the equation of how I make decisions to live in my world realizing that it’s all about me, only I myself am responsible for everything that is happening in my inner reality and that it was all along just me judging myself and not allowing myself to express myself unconditionally in my reality and that others are simply the mirrors reflecting me back to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I have created this idea of myself as who I am and now I fear losing this idea because I know within me that this idea is not real and will fail the physical practical test when and as I start active participation in my reality

I commit myself to stop living in the mind with energies as thoughts, believe, assumptions and challenge the mind in placing the real practical physical tests to see what is real and what is not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how instead of living physically practically here I am remaining in my alternate mind reality living in a constant battle between positive and negative, inferiority and superiority towards others and myself forming myself into knowledge definitions which I started to believe is who I really am and now fear losing

I commit myself to investigate all of me as who I have become and only keep that which is good, which is supportive and is aligned with reality as being what’s best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all the knowledge that I carry about who I am is actually huge burden and a limitation I impose upon myself believing that this is how I maintain control and thus am safe in this reality

I commit myself to establish breath as the place where I exist always realizing that’s the only place of safety because in breath I do not think and thus do not interpret reality in my own skewed way but I see reality as it is and that’s actually the safe and SANE way to be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not realize that the only “safe” place in this world is being here in and as breath where no energy and no polarity exist, where I am who I am as the authentic self as the physical character of this world, one and equal to all other physicality that is here and that is always here no matter in what form or shape, yet this is the realization that I still have to live by slowly and surely unburdening myself from all the knowledge that I have acquired about who I am and should be

 

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15 comments on “Day 179: I am not good enough” character – backchat dimension (Part1)

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