Day 182: I am not good enough” character – backchat dimension (Part4)

 

 

This blog is a continuation within the series of blogs I am writing about “I am not good enough” character which manifests itself within situations where I have to take action by making a decision to actively participate in my everyday reality. In this blog I am looking at the dimension of backchat/inner conversations that manifest when I allow the character to continue.

Introductory Blog

 

Fear Dimension

Fear of being judged
Fear of making mistakes
Fear of confrontation/people
Fear of losing myself and that which I know
Fear of not being able to handle the truth of me
Fear of losing free choice
Fear of the responsibility

 

Thought dimension

Seeing myself in a situation that goes out of hand and I cannot control it
Seeing a picture that is empty/blank
Seeing a picture of myself where I am being screamed at/called out

 

Backchat dimension

How will people react when I change from being silent/introverted guy to suddenly being active in my participation
I just cannot start participating with people from my surroundings because the topics they discuss are useless and of pure self-interest
If I start participating/interacting actively I will have to sustain that and will not have the free time I used to have
I am not good at applying knowledge practically, I spent too much time just reading and listening to others
I just have to start doing it and it will work out
I do not have the critical thinking skills like others do, all I did was follow others thought out my life
*Here I will add more backchat if/when I find more during the process of writing 

 

Self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the negative backchat “I am not good at applying knowledge practically, I spent too much time just reading and listening to others” as self-judgment where I sabotage myself instead of looking at what is here within stability of my breath and so make a self-directive decision to correct the point which I am not satisfied with

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate how and why I am not allowing myself to apply the knowledge and information practically for myself and instead go into negative experience of self-judgmental backchat pulling myself deeper and deeper into the mind’s process from where I initiate reactions and physical behavior thus validating/perpetuating the character “I am not good enough”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this backchat to direct and influence who I am in the moment instead of realizing the simplicity of practical application and walking the necessary steps in and as breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the backchat to run within me unchecked as if it is actually real instead of, within the moment of catching myself in my mind talking to myself, give myself a moment to see what exactly this backchat is indicating and how I can correct the moment towards the outcome of self-stability and effectiveness

I commit myself to within catching myself backchatting and thus sabotaging my application stop myself, breathe and focus on the process of correction where within that I utilize all the available resources of support that exists here

 

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16 comments on “Day 182: I am not good enough” character – backchat dimension (Part4)

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