Day 183: I am not good enough” character – backchat dimension (Part5)

 

This blog is a continuation within the series of blogs I am writing about “I am not good enough” character which manifests itself within situations where I have to take action by making a decision to actively participate in my everyday reality. In this blog I am looking at the dimension of backchat/inner conversations that manifest when I allow the character to continue.

Introductory Blog

 

Fear Dimension

Fear of being judged
Fear of making mistakes
Fear of confrontation/people
Fear of losing myself and that which I know
Fear of not being able to handle the truth of me
Fear of losing free choice
Fear of the responsibility

 

Thought dimension

Seeing myself in a situation that goes out of hand and I cannot control it
Seeing a picture that is empty/blank
Seeing a picture of myself where I am being screamed at/called out

 

Backchat dimension

How will people react when I change from being silent/introverted guy to suddenly being active in my participation
I just cannot start participating with people from my surroundings because the topics they discuss are useless and of pure self-interest
If I start participating/interacting actively I will have to sustain that and will not have the free time I used to have
I am not good at applying knowledge practically, I spent too much time just reading and listening to others
I just have to start doing it and it will work out
I do not have the critical thinking skills like others do, all I did was follow others thought out my life
*Here I will add more backchat if/when I find more during the process of writing 

 

Self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from the fear that comes up when and as I am making a decision to participate with beings in my reality create a positive polarity backchat “I just have to start doing it and it will work out”which is basically HOPE and not actual self-trust of knowing that I will direct each moment in self-awareness when and as I approach people and situations in my reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within the statement “I just have to start doing it and it will work out” I am creating positive future projection just to make myself feel better in my mind while no real physical actions are yet taken

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by allowing the backchat/inner conversations in my mind I am creating alternate reality which I am trying to impose on the actual physical reality not realizing that all thoughts/backchat can exist only within polarity which is never stable but is constantly changing from one pole to the other, from positive to negative thus within that allowance of polarity within myself I am never stable in my state of being but I am just a slave to energy movements within me where one moment I feel good about myself and then suddenly I am overwhelmed with negative emotions and so on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by allowing feelings and emotions to run rampant in my mind I am actually abusing my body where I am using it as energy mining source to sustain my characters which are based in self-interest, just like the character “I am not good enough” which is absolutely useless character just existing within me and feeding of the physical body while in no way contributing to a life that is best for all

Thus I commit myself to investigate what am I accepting and allowing to exist within me as various characters/personalities and within that I realize that it is my responsibility to tend to my creations, acceptance and allowance and ensure that whatever I create it benefits life on earth rather than destroys it and abuses it

I commit myself to remove the point of HOPE in how I plan and move throughout my life and instead investigate, research and thus start making informed decisions in how I live my life

 

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11 comments on “Day 183: I am not good enough” character – backchat dimension (Part5)

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