Day 187: I am not good enough” character – reaction dimension (Part3)

 

 

This blog is a continuation within the series of blogs I am writing about “I am not good enough” character which manifests itself within situations where I have to take action by making a decision to actively participate in my everyday reality. In this blog I am looking at the dimension of reactions that manifest in my bode when this character is playing out.

Introductory Blog

 

Fear Dimension

Fear of being judged
Fear of making mistakes
Fear of confrontation/people
Fear of losing myself and that which I know
Fear of not being able to handle the truth of me
Fear of losing free choice
Fear of the responsibility

 

Thought dimension

Seeing myself in a situation that goes out of hand and I cannot control it
Seeing a picture that is empty/blank
Seeing a picture of myself where I am being screamed at/called out

 

Backchat dimension

How will people react when I change from being silent/introverted guy to suddenly being active in my participation
I just cannot start participating with people from my surroundings because the topics they discuss are useless and of pure self-interest
If I start participating/interacting actively I will have to sustain that and will not have the free time I used to have
I am not good at applying knowledge practically, I spent too much time just reading and listening to others
I just have to start doing it and it will work out
I do not have the critical thinking skills like others do, all I did was follow others throughout my life

 

Reactions

Guilt
Inferiority
Anxiety
Overwhelmingness
Depression
Expectation / Anticipation
Excitement

 

Self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety when and as I am approaching people in my environment in instances where I have to actively participate and interact with them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the process of how I am creating this reaction of anxiety and allowing this reaction to determine my participation with people where as a consequence of this allowance I am shutting myself off from active communication and participation thus remaining busy in my mind talking just to myself creating a completely alternate reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how this reaction originates from the fear I have towards people and especially having possible conflicting interactions when/if I stand as myself and clearly state what it is that I am seeing and doing about who I am in relation to this reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear for my own survival thus within that trying to uphold the current position of where I am and who I am to ensure that I do not lose that which I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am still approaching people and situations in my reality from the mind knowledge and information instead of being in equality with each moment and responding in a way that is best for all which implies that my actions ensure that I do not compromise myself but sustain the stable platform for myself where I can ground my feet and grow in my understanding about this reality and where within that I find the most effective ways to bring the change in how we all live and relate with each other in this reality

I commit myself to approach my reality practically considering all the variables so that I do not compromise my position that I have so far established within the system and so I first focus all the attention on myself where I educate myself about how exactly the human mind and this whole system function

I commit myself when and as a reaction of anxiety arises within me when and as I am willing to interact with people in my reality to stop myself and take a breath where from here I look into me to establish what ideas, thoughts are predominant in my mind and whether that is actually supporting me or I am just sabotaging myself to not take responsibility for my world

I commit myself to realize that I am the one that creates this experience of anxiety and I am the one who can stop this by bringing me here by walking practical simplicity as common sense consideration to what is here in the moment

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