Day 299: New Job and the Discovery of Stress

thI have started a new job recently and in this position I’ve had moments that were rather intense. Throughout my life I have pretty much avoided any responsibility and all the jobs I had in the past were essentially an easy ride for me. I did observe the people who would get stressed in their jobs and I could not relate or understand how you get to such a point.

In this new job, however, my understanding expanded and I have had the moments where it seemed like I was on the edge of breaking down because of the workload and the pressure to get things done. Despite these moments being tough I found that they are also an opportunity to expand and break the limitations I had about what is possible. Essentially what I have learned is that when those intense moments come there is no time for thinking, no time for distraction and all the focus and attentions must be absolutely here on the task. I was satisfied with myself after being able to manage these moments and each time when the same moments with same intensity came I was able to find my stability more quickly and be more effective.

So I am glad that I am finally learning what it means to focus myself on something so completely and where you get things done for real. It took me a long time to get to this point because I resisted change a lot, I was always fearing and anticipating the worst, holding also the belief that I require more and more preparation to start something without realizing that there is only so much you can prepare and that without real application of the knowledge there is no improvement possible.

In this little journey I found that there are many factors which determine how we will handle stress and most are within our ability to direct and perfect ourselves within yet what I also found is that the system is sometimes too demanding thus pushing individuals too hard without considering their needs and abilities.

I have seen people being constantly under stress and where that stress is accumulating from day to day leading to undesirable consequences. In this blog I would like to note one important factor I have noticed which revels quite accurately that there are problems. And that is SLEEP patterns. This seems to be a prevalent problem in our current work environment. I have spoken to many people and it is obvious that it’s a big issue which is not addressed and given the significance it deserves. When I started working in my new position I have worked very long hours but at the same time I noticed that I also required longer sleeping hours to “digest” all the new information so to speak and it worked very well where the next day I would wake up with a clear mind ready to take the new challenges of the day. When this cycle is disturbed the challenges become burdens which accumulate and may lead to mental and physical exhaustion. Here are some very supportive blogs on this subject for anyone having sleep issues:

Oh! Good night’s rest, Good night’s rest…wherefore art thou Good night’s rest

Sleeping: Trying to fight a losing battle

To Sleep or Not to Sleep – the Dilemma with Tiredness

When I want to Sleep my problems away – yet my problems keep me Awake…

It’s unfortunate that the system we live in sometimes places unreasonable demands by forcing us, through the fear of survival, to keep working and producing results without considering simple, common sense needs of the individuals. So by doing the best we can in our individual lives we also have to pay attention and seek bigger solutions that would challenge the current system to change it into one that considers real physical needs of all humans as well as animals and plants. I support the movement of “Living Income Guaranteed” which addresses these issues by providing practical solutions to our sleepless nights.

More on Stress:

Is it Possible For Stress to be Constructive?



Day 245: True Grit and Happiness


We humans have become unable to see and seek long-term goals of true happiness but became absolutely possessed about achieving instant/short-term gratifications that we have made to be the goal of our lives. And this happens at a cost which we will find and realize only in the long-term, and which, as I just wrote, we are so far unable to see. Ok, I mean we ARE able to see with our physical eyes by just looking at factual data that is available and is depicting, specifically, all self-destructive ways in which we exist, but we are not able to understand the true implications of that information as we are so unwilling to let go of that desire to get the quick fix, to get our pleasurable experiences. We are desperate to get them because most of the time we exist in agony.
Drink a bottle of beer and whatever issue you are dealing with will just disappear, you can relax your mind for a moment (weekends ring a bell?). Yes, for a moment as it returns in another moment tenfold and so you need another bottle to continue the exponentially growing cycle. Then your liver fails. Oops, In that case it’s then not seeing the long-term effect/consequences but experiencing them, which in many ways is already too late, the damage is already done and some things cannot be reversed.
So where did we become such brainwashed weaklings unable to see the obvious? Haven’t our responsible parents explain the rules of this physical reality and how everything functions when we were born? Isn’t that the first thing to teach the child?
There is no proof that they did. Then perhaps our parents are not really responsible beings? Maybe they were drinking away or suppressing their problems in other ways and have never dealt with them and simply transferred all that to further generations to hopefully for them to sort things out?
We have been running too long from our problems and in this way abdicating all the responsibility to our automatic mind systems of management and we can no longer view and assess our reality in common sense consideration. Critical thinking skills have been left behind and lost through parenting and ineffective schooling systems that only aim to produce obedient slaves to the world system, which only a few can understand and benefit from.
We have become so weak and helpless that there is no more vigor and grit left within us to seek solutions and so we became complacent and content with only little/ short-term feel good experiences that the system provides for us by our own desire.


After all that’s been done to us by our unaware predecessors we still have to stop ourselves from continuing within the same cycles of self-destruction and in this find ways to develop and nourish within ourselves the TRUE GRIT.

‘True gritters’ show perseverance, tenacity, ‘perseverance and passion for long-term goals’, and are tenacious, not easily distracted and not discouraged by setbacks. – From an article in daily news

So here the inner strength is important as within this journey of change we have to go against years and years of programming that we have accepted and allowed and actually have become. Still I am sure, as I am sure about myself, that within most people there is still a spark of life burning and calling to take action in the name of what is best for all.
The realization in this is important – that we have absolutely nothing to lose by moving towards change apart from the illusion that we call living. In this stupidity of action is inadvisable as I am sure many would like to resort upon starting to see and understand the nature of the problems we face. In this case I am afraid the principle of homeopathy will not work and stupidity will not cure stupidity. For once we must become mature and realize the true actions that need to be taken for the change to become a reality. We’ve been taking the easy way out forever and the good thing about that is that now we know that it doesn’t work and different approach is required.

“Nothing is easier than to denounce the evil doer; Nothing more difficult than understanding him.” – Fyodor Dostoevsky

There is a process that takes many years of self-commitment through self-education where all pieces of self are taken apart and explored in great detail through the realization that only by getting to know ourselves we can understand the reality as a whole and become thus the integral PARTicipant in bringing change through this understanding.


The end of dull “life” and re-establishment of that which truly matters and is the real source of real happiness.


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Day 125: Building future on ideas

Idea is about the point in the future that I believe will manifest and within that making my decisions as if this idea is already a reality. What will happen if the idea, that I so strongly believe will come true, will not manifest? I can tell – my little bubble world that I created in my mind around this idea will come crushing down and I will feel as if I have lost something, when there was nothing in the first place, just expectations, future projections, desires, wants and needs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea in my mind that I want to desperately manifest in the future and around which I build whole alternate reality as if this idea is already a reality thus missing the actual reality that is HERE

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the idea in my mind which holds the promise of ‘perfect’ future reality where within that I do not realize that what really matters and what I am missing, by living within an IDEA, is who I am HERE and not realizing that who I am HERE will always be HERE and so if I am not satisfied with being HERE then I will surely will not be satisfied if/when the idea will manifest as I am always HERE no matter where or with who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that creation of ideas in the mind is always idealized where they usually do not match the actual reality and thus lead to disappointment if/when they materialize

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the aspect of impatience in wanting to manifest an idea closes the mind off within tunnel vision where I do not see all the available opportunities and possibilities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by living as the desire to manifest an idea I compromise and disregard what is here, I do not live breath by breath in every moment and thus I manifest my separation from what is here as my idea and desire to manifest it super cedes the actual reality and my physical participation in it

I commit myself bring myself back HERE out of the alternate reality that I have created around an idea that I want to manifest in the future where I make sure that I remain in alignment with what is actually here as the real physical reality

I commit myself to investigate all ideas that emerge in my mind and make sure that they stand for what is best for all and that they are not creations to satisfy my self-interested desires

I commit myself to release my attachment to the ideas in my mind and be here remaining open to possibilities that come up in my reality and within that always chose a path that is best for all

I commit myself to ensure that ideas/future plans that I create within me are not based on positive experiences but are realistic goals that I place for myself from the starting point of supporting myself as who I am as living being that is willing to expand and ensure a future that is best for all

I commit myself to be patient and always consider what is here as physical reality and not allow myself to base my actions on hope, desire, need to fulfill my ideas as that indicates self-interest- instead I make sure that my actions are always directed in designing a reality that honors all life

What is Ideas and how they operate? – READ HERE
Day 33: Emergence of Ideas
Day 34: Emergence of Ideas Self Forgiveness Statements
Day 35: Emergence of Ideas Self Forgiveness Statements Continued 
Day 36: Emergence of Ideas Self Commitment Statements
Day 37: Emergence of Ideas Self Commitment Statements continued

Day 60: Honor Your Body (continued)

…Continuation from my previous blog

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my body for granted and do with it what I desired without considering the necessary care that is required to keep the body healthy and ensure my body’s long term sustainability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the stories by people who shared their lives with me in regards how they abused their bodies through arduous sport activities while being younger and how they now experience the consequences of that as pains and limitations within their bodies  that they have to live with

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am special and the experiences of those who have gone before me do not apply to me thus within that continuing a lifestyle where I put my body under a lot of pressure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my body is only a tool for me to experience what I desire where I created desires that were greater than my physical abilities thus putting my body under maximum pressure to match my desires

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never stop and consider the consequences of the many great injuries that my body suffered because of my self-interest as my desire for achievements within my physical abilities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in separation from my physical body where I considered my mind with its desires to be of primary importance and that that my body was just a slave to my desires

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride in my minds desires because they were beyond this physical reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride in my ignorance of my physical body where I gladly boasted about my injuries that I endured within that showing that I don’t give a fuck about my body and I will push my boundaries further and further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider my existence in my body an illusion and limitation that I have to transcend and break – and I did that quite literally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget and discard moments where I would get really sick and where I was actually realizing that my body is all that matters in that moment and that with a sick body all my illusions of grandeur disappear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make promises to myself while being really sick that from now on I will really take care of my body if I get well, yet after the sickness passed I would not change and continue my ignorance just as before

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat earth body in the same way as I treated my own body – with total disrespect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my body and the body of the earth is the actual life giver to all that I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that physical reality is not real thus within that giving myself the right/excuse to ignore this physical reality and everything that I saw in it as all the abuse and suffering of human beings, animals, nature etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am consciousness trapped in this physical body thus constantly searching for ways to escape my body and when not succeeding, hurting it by spiting it as something that keeps me stuck in limitation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way I am able to experience myself as a conscious being is because of the physical energy that I get from my physical body and this earth thus through my ignorance I was spiting myself as the very life essence that I am as my physicality


I commit myself to educate the younger generation about the necessity to care for self as ones physical body so that the consequences later in life through years of ignorance could be avoided

I commit myself to educate myself on the practical ways of how to best support human physical body and share this information with everyone willing to listen

I commit myself to dedicate myself to the study of homeopathy which is a very supportive tool to battle diseases and create a support structure for humans, animals and plants

I commit myself to expose the con of consciousness where within that physical body is belittled and ignored as if it is a secondary thing and within that bring the realization that our physical bodies are of primary importance and need to be taken care of before everything else

I commit myself to also show that our personal bodies are not separate from the body of the earth and thus the health of the earth is equally important for our survival and that we have to start taking really good care of our planet and remove all the systems that are abusing and using this earth for profit and greed