Day 297: Slowing Down to Avoid Stress

time-spiral-400x315Through experience I have noticed that many people when we watch TV or read magazines or simply observe other people from our environment, who are successful and are doing many great things, we tend to go into a comparison and in this a normal reaction is to feel a little bit bad about ourselves. We experience some jealousy and/or self-judgment because it’s not us that came up with some specific idea, it’s not us that has the skill, has the knowledge and it’s not us that lives this apparently better life.

What I found within myself when facing such moments is to immediately try to imagine myself in their position, I try to see what skills can I develop, how can I build myself up, basically how can I evolve to that or similar state of being. Facing such situations few times a day or however frequently and not dealing with it properly, meaning, not investigating within myself whether that specific point is actually relevant in my process, I mean do I actually need such skills like the individual, I observed or heard about, has. Also I am not investigating the actual process that would need to be walked to get to such a position etc. I mean there are many dimensions that need to be taken into consideration within each such point. So when not dealing with such experiences I found that I am accumulating lots of energy through those short moments of jealousy, self-judgment, and overall sense of inferiority.

This energy I have seen does not go anywhere and sits constantly within my body and affects rather greatly everything I do, who I am. There is like this energetic veil that gets pulled over the eyes and there seems to be no way out, and from here, like a headless chicken I run into many directions trying to find a solution. To take an analogy it would be like a plumbing system where in one place there is a blockage of garbage and now the water cannot run through it, it is still seeping ever so slightly, and gives me the idea that it’s still working. And yes, I mean I am still relatively functioning in my reality and I am moving myself here and there but to say that I am actually moving towards my potential, that I am taking the best steps to fulfill my goals, I cannot.

Now the problem comes when the solution is applied through our learned intelligence. Instead of finding and removing the blockage what do we do, using again the analogy, we pour more water to put more pressure and hope that this will blow things the right way. That does work from time to time and only temporarily but it’s definitely not a real solution as the source was never fixed or even understood in its functioning to thus be able to prevent further such instances. We can see the same intelligence applied in most parts of our system – like medical system where instead of understanding the cause of a disease and healing the whole organism we simply suppress the symptoms creating thus deeper problems that manifest now in other ways; also money system where instead of realizing that the system itself is based on the abusive mechanisms that are depleting and exploiting life on earth we continue to fuel it by printing more money or even attempting, as we see currently within the news, to create new global currency believing this to be a solution. Won’t work.

Now going back to the initial point I was addressing what I have seen to be a more effective solution is basically to slow down for a moment and see what is really going on here. Yes, the tendency is to move quickly, there is like a sense of emergency that is growing, the energy is building up and pressure is rising, and we shout that we need a fast solution. Now it’s the best time to apply self-will and to slow down. Writing here is one of the best tools for that because through writing you re-align yourself with the physical time as you type and you look inside yourself – its equal -whereas when you are just in your mind the time is a quantum time and you leap from one thought construct to another in the speed of light, mostly without any understanding or awareness. With writing your mind is basically forced to slow down and you can see better how stuff inside you is moving. Now I can see what is causing my slightly dysfunctional behavior, I can see that I am sitting here with all the energy that I have accumulated through all those moments I have missed and allowed myself to judge myself for who I am and who I am not. I have allowed myself judge myself for the mistakes I have made in the past, and I have also allowed myself to fear and worry about my future. I mean there are many points working at once and unless we slow down we will not be able to identify them and remove them effectively like a real plumber would remove the dirt from the pipes.

“Understanding that each moment is here for self-realization – this being as possible as each breath that you take.”

“Work as self, understanding that there are no mistakes, therefore no judgment for anything you have created – just unconditional release. Silence the mind as you breathe by not accepting fear, confusion or a systematic approach. Approach each situation with a new look at oneness and equality, understanding that in truth there are no limitations, other then what you as the mind allow. Trusting self and trusting that there are no mistakes other than what you have attached blame and judgment to. Allow each moment to be new and ask of yourself forgiveness whenever you realize that the decisions you made were not in truth or were of a system.” – Desteni


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Day 20: Echo of the Past

I have this fear of making phone calls, especially to agencies/companies requesting information or anything of that matter. While being here with other people and seeing how comfortable they are within this point and seeing how much extra work I have to do to compensate for this self-imposed limitation I decided within me that I have to change. I mean it’s plain bullshit to exist in this fear and I mean when I actually push myself to make phone calls and when I communicate everything is just fine. Still I have to be aware of this pattern as somehow I keep slipping into the alternatives subconsciously avoiding making bloody phone calls. I usually write letters or try to find answers myself on company’s webpage etc. Today, when I was within one of these scenarios, I kept looking for a long time for the answer to my question not being able to find anything I got pissed off and simply called the company to enquire – so I got my answer in a matter of seconds. It’s amazing how some patterns are lived as a habit just because of some distant echoes of the past which are not in any way relevant in today’s world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my past without awareness of current moment instead of participating and being here in each new moment of my life where I walk into each moment anew considering all relevant points and my actions within that moment

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I am not here in the moment it is my mind who is in control and it acts automatically based on my limited  preprogramming that I have accepted throughout my life

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question each action that I live in my reality within consideration whether my actions are self-directed or is it just automated behavior from the past

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, understand and realize that this is exactly what we as humans are doing where we live the past within the believe that those that went before us have laid effective ways to deal with our reality when evidence clearly shows that what we are left with is destructive ways of being thus we require our critical reconsideration of everything we do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be just another human robot who abdicates all trust to the mind as the directive principle of my life where I make decisions based on the knowledge and information that I have learned from those that went before me without questioning the validity of this knowledge even in the face of what this knowledge has produced as this current world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk blindly in this world where I simply accepted the current way as the only way where within that I walk my small/personal way within the big way trying to make the best of it without realizing that walking my small/personal way I support the big way as this world system to remain as it is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking out of my way as preprogrammed path that’s laid before me because then I go “against” the system as  it is designed for each to walk their own way to make it work not realizing that by making this system work by me walking my own way I support this system and thus I am responsible for all the consequences that this system produces

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  fear the responsibility that I see comes together with my decision to walk another path outside the accepted preprogrammed path

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see that this preprogrammed path is leading me straight into oblivion as it is where this whole system is going through complete ignorance of the physical reality – the one thing that makes life on earth possible

I commit myself to step out of the preprogrammed path and walk a new path where I make my own decisions within awareness and consideration of all that is here on this planet earth together with me as I understand that the preprogrammed path is totally based on separation and self-interest which is slowly killing all life

I commit myself to slow myself down within my daily participation as I see that when I move fast I automatically jump into my automated behavior patterns and I act without consideration of all that is here

I commit myself to search and investigate a new way for each old way where I expose the old way as destructive as it really is and within that I search for methods of how to introduce the new way by presenting common sense and showing how the new way will lead us into a more fulfilled and dignified live for all

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