This blog is continuation in the series where I take the point of studying as well as approaching any other tasks/assignments in my reality. My initial blog as overview is here: “Day 148: I have never been a good student. Is it too late?”
Here I am continuing with the physical dimension where my thoughts, inner conversations, reactions bring me to the point of physical experiences/actions that I fall into without much awareness. Today I am looking at a distraction that I allow myself to be occupied with – that is Strain in the shoulders
Physical Behavior
Strain in the shoulders
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate the experience of strain in my shoulders that I have in my body when and as doing my tasks/assignments where in time I accepted this uncomfortability as normal as who I am while clearly it doesn’t have to be that way
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, understand and realize how I am creating this experience through the processes of the mind as thoughts , backchats, reactions that I allow to accumulate within me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of investigating through becoming aware of my mind movement, writing and then releasing through self-forgiveness and self-correction this uncomfortability in my shoulders, I instead fight this experience through just pushing myself to bear the pain and continue with doing tasks/assignments which in the end is not as effective as it would be if I were to be comfortable within my body
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop and look what it is “in my way” that is obstructing my potential of effective movement by being comfortable within my body
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how the backchat “I can’t learn all this information”, “I don’t have enough time” and from here the reaction of overwhelmingness to this backchat are manifesting this heaviness and weight upon my shoulders causing the uncomfortability
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise my physical body and my practical living by creating alternate mind reality which is not only an illusion but a destructive one that has the power to influence my physical participation in this world
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to devote some time and take all necessary measures to ensure the best conditions for my body which can include doing regular exercises: like going to the gym, going to the swimming pool, doing some physical work in my garden, visiting chiropractor etc., that would ensure regular support for my body
I commit myself to walk away from the mind and back into my physical body where I stand in equality with my body being aware of all what is happening to each part
I commit myself to understand the relationship that I have created between my mind and my physical body and how my thoughts, backchats, energetic reaction influence my body
I commit myself to when I experience uncomfortability in my body stop myself and take the necessary time to establish the causes of the experience and also find means of how to deal with the manifested consequences – do some stretching, go to the gym, swimming pool, go and move around in the garden etc.
I commit myself to realize that my approach of pushing through this uncomfortable experience is stupid and that it will not go away unless I interfere and take all the necessary measures of correction
I commit myself to utilize writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application in order to get to the bottom of how I created this experience of uncomfortability in my body
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