I have observed some change within myself for some time now in relation to how i approach relationships in my reality. Trying to explain it I would say this in terms of how I changed within my focus and what I pay attention to when being with others. Here I mean that my focus when interacting with people shifted more into questions like– what it is that can I learn from them? What good qualities they have that I could incorporate into my own living and thus become more effective?
In the past it was slightly different because being with people and when, for example, seeing some cool qualities they expressed I would simply start comparing myself and in this experiencing negative emotions for not having/possessing those qualities. When having this emotional layers of, basically, self-judgment I was never able to really, practically view those qualities observed in another and see how I relate to that. I would get depressed and feel inferior and then try to compensate for this feeling and try to find where I am better than this person and so it went in endless comparison cycles of polarity. This type of relation I realized is useless and it‘s much better to learn from each other and when possible assist each other in that process.
This shift in focus opened up many new opportunities to be able to make practical changes in my daily living. There are so many people and I started noticing that many of them have parts/qualities within them that are like gemstones that I can collect and practice and test in my own reality.
To give an example I have this colleague at work whom I have been observing and through that found an interesting and very valuable quality that he possesses. That is when he makes a decision about something there is no time gap to act upon it and he does that so fully as if he is going ahead with all his beingness and he doesn’t stop until he gets what he wants or until he exhausted all possible means. What is not so cool is that sometimes in this process he doesn’t consider other people and how they are affected through his actions.
So taking this observation of how this guy moves in his reality I started slowly practicing to also act on my decisions in a more assertive way, because before I was extensively overthinking in this process and, yes, I still do sometimes give too much thought to things and compromise my physical actions in that way. Meaning that, instead of acting and doing things in the physical reality I do them in my mind, like I would have conversations with people that I want to approach or where I am projecting in my mind the whole play out of a possible situation out into the future. I am not saying that these things are bad when done for the purpose to try and oversee some possible outcomes etc, but I go too far where within my projections I feel like it’s already done, I take the projections too far basically. When later I act in my physical reality and something goes not like I planned it in my mind I go into a reaction because the whole projection that I created is not valid anymore, so my house of cards collapses.
To have a better look at this point I listened to a very supportive interview called “Thirst for Knowledge – Journeys Into the Afterlife – Part 69“on EQAFE where it was explained that it is important to realize that we cannot know everything and some situations will turn out completely different than what we imagined them to be and in this it’s important to develop and have self-trust and the knowing that no matter what happens I will find a way, and if mistakes are made it’s not a big deal as long as I learn from them and move forward.
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